all i have now is one question.



don't you love me anymore?



how can you say stop then stop? why can't i be able to do that too? why must i still cry myself to sleep every night even after so long? i can't tell anyone about the pain i'm going through because i'll be super annoying as i will be telling them everyday. and nobody understands. i'm so tired. so tired of crying myself to sleep every night. sometimes i feel as if i'm drowning in my own tears because all i can do is cry and i just can't breathe. 

if you still love me, why can't we get another chance? because i really do still love you. if i don't, then why am i so miserable everyday. EVERYDAY. i know i did wrong. i made mistakes. huge mistakes even. but everybody makes mistakes. i'm only human. i've learned my lessons already. and i've changed. i SWEAR i've changed. i know you don't trust me but can't you try harder? it takes time. and you're not giving yourself the time to. i'll change. i'll change to make you happy. anything. just tell me what to do. i swear i will do it. just don't go.

i have the urge to call you everyday. just to hear your voice and to hear you call me baby or say i love you. but i know that's impossible now. you must hate me. even i hate myself. i hate myself for being so weak. i hate myself for letting you go. i hate myself for everything i've done.

i still remember every word you say. everything you do. you loved me so. but yet i've let you down again and again. it's all my fault. i really don't know what to do. should i stay or should i go? i know you think i'm annoying already. even i think i'm annoying too.

i remember you said my lips were soft, my smile was mesmerizing and i was the only person who could make you that happy. that you've never been happier. i remember sentosa. i remember losing my slipper. i remember lying under the stars with you. you were always there to protect me. always there when i need you. you pampered me. i was your baby girl. but it was all lost along the way.

we were so happy together. what happened? now all i want was to be back in your arms again. to hear you call me baby again. to see our picture back in your wallet again. i want to sleep with you at night. to feel your warmth again. what must i do to make you happy?

i loved you and i still do. if you still love me too, why can't we make this work again?




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