i hate my previous relationship!!!argh!!!it totally shattered the confidence i had in myself!i hate him n i hate myself even more!god...he made me feel as if i'm the world's biggest idiot n most irritating person on the world n because of him i tried to change n i guess i sumhow did n in the end i'll end up think tt i'm irritating the whole world n the whole world hates me or sumthing lidat...i juz dun hav my self confidence anymore n i feel so useless n small now...i juz dunno wat to do anymore...i feel so...irritating!!!argh!!!for the slightest thing i'll feel as if pp find mi irritating n feel so zi bei about it...god...help mi...i hate him!n myself.... ='(

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yes....i stand no chance in billy's heart n he confirmed it by saying he still like tt person...he juz treats mi as a friend...i'm over reacting...i 'm over sensitive n i'm dying of SHAME!!!argh!!!

i have mood swing....god...i'm feeling so low now...n guess y.....billy...ya...ha..he's the one...i always get this image in my mind tt i'm irritating coz by my previous relationship..n i dunno...i'm getting the vibe tt i'm irritating him...n..hai...dunno la...he din say tt...he was really nice bout it n stuff n he told mi he liked sum1 n din really tell mi hu...n ya...i'm DEPRESSED!oh god...i need to go havemy brain checked!argh.....wat is wrong with mi!he's juz a friend!!!

yoohoo!!!!hello everybody!had a good day!i no i had...bread bread bread...i can sing a song with his name man..haha....lovely...thinking bout him...lalala....budden....i kinda..i dunno...like billy?ha...dunno la....itz juz tt we've been talking lots these few days n u no...msging each other n stuff...u no..talking...n...i guess i juz feel comfortable talking to him n stuff...maybe i'm over sensitive ba.....i dunno...but i dun think u'll msg any1 4 nth n further more he's with some1 else enjoying outside...suddenly ask mi wat i'm doing?watz up with tt?or maybe he msg the wrong person but pae sae to say it out ah...i oso dunno...n we toked so much...i dunno...when i told him tt my bf no 3 was on tv singing a song 4 mi...he ask mi wat song n say he'll sing it to mi...i dunno...mayb he say it 4 fun...he still self profess is my lao gong no 2.....i think too much ba...ya..i think, i do...still...i dunno...billy has grown since sec 1 n he really does seem cuter.....hmmm....i dunno!haha...if i had to choose between bread n billy...i think i'll choose billy...but hu nos?mayb is all wo zi zi yi xiang qing yuan u no...mayb pp juz take mi as normal friend...ahhh!!!!dunno la!!!!i no i may seem like this hua xin da luo bo but....hu cares?this is the freedom i get 4 being single!wat can u do?whahahah!haha.........oh well...dunno la...sui suan ba... =)