i've been thinking today....n i guess...i think too much....i'm going crazy...hai....i'm going mad soon....argh!too many pp in my head!a?b?c?d?e?argh!siao alr la!!!

yes...as i've mentioned in the main blog..i was damn high coz i saw bread ha...stupid i no...i juz like how goofy he looks...ttz enuff to make mi high liao..ha...den today is the first time i saw a different expression on his face..haha..he was frowning with the eng results n it was damn cute!ha..den after tt went in front to q to giv pearly c my sw den he was infront den after tt see kiat was at the backpoking him..den he tot it was mi no!ha...den i c is see kiat den he tell see kiat..u poke summor i poke u den u no..haha...damn funny lor...cute eh?haha...so all was going well until i went hm...

nan de i go hm early ah...den i was accused..again!i really hate it lor...how many times dey wanna accuse mi?slaped mi across the face summor...i was positive my skin tore coz when i bathed it hurt...den my specs were thrown onto the floor n they went dented...luckily i no how 2 fix lor..i've been doing it often..i guess u can guess y now..hai..in the end she did say sorry but watz the use of saying sorry after u slapped mi?i dun understand...so i went out of the hse...figured they'd still b in sch..went to sch n yes..they were there all right..went in n got my a math text oso..i nvr explained y i was there to dem..sl asked mi..den i told her i juz walk walk onli...den she of coz din believe mi..n tt was when i broke down...i juz couldn't stand it animore...i was v upset...sl guo ran ke yi yi yan kan chuan wo...on my way out with sl..saw wong ren...n i no wong ren saw mi crying oso...coz i caught him staring...so pae sae...i was praying tt he wldn't ask...n thank god..he's a sensitive man n din ask instead he tried to disract mi by talking 2 mi bout other things...he din breathe a word about mi crying..i really appriciate tt =) i oso really appritiate sana n sl's concern...i guess...itz time tt i nid..u all no nid worry bout mi...esp sl..ha..after they left..i went to sit at bus stop...stared..n sat the bus 1 big round...i actually wanted to go to the beach coz ttz where i always went when upset...but i rmb tt i wasn't able to go there until 100 days is over so i bo bian sit bus...quite calming oso...

i like the beach a lot...juz by blowing the sea breeze n listenin to the waves...it can immediately calm mi dwn...i love it..i can shout out loud n nobody will giv a damn there...i find it really...peaceful...i guess ttz 1 reason y i like geog so much....the beach will always b there...lovely...hai...i'm going to calm my nerves now...btw...thanks to sl n sana =)

btw...those peeps tt no this blog rite...plz dun tell anibodi or giv anibodi...juz keep it to urself...n dun link this!

ytd during band tt time i went out n shouted 'mian bao!' to the field coz i no he in his cca rm..den when i look dwn he was there looking up at mi no!haha...den he look n mi n laughed n smiled..with his 'she's at it again' expression...haha..wha...totally mesmerised..n totally pae sae!haha...heng he dunno i shouting his nick sia...if nt sure even more pae sae 1...haha...so cute lor him..omg!haha...yes...i'm falling again...dunno where the bottom is but i dun care..i like this feeling n dun eva wan it to end...living in my own world of fantasies but hu cares?ha...i like it...hmm...how nice it wld b if he feels the same way too... =D i'm crapping again...aniwae..

hai...i really nid sumbody's shoulder now coz i feel like i dun belong..i dunno...my family is full of crap...i juz nid a breather...i nid to go out n walk n feel the earth beneath my feet...breathe in the fresh air..time to think...hai...sum times i juz wish i was born sumwhere else...sian....but nv...i juz nid to think of bread... =)

i realli nid security nw...hai..but i guess i'll juz hav to do with my pooh bears now...hai...BREAD!there...much better... =) aniwae...thanks to mel n sana....u guys rock...i really dunno wat i would do without u 2.. =)

yes..i'm bk again...nw i'm sitting here with mixed feelings...i dunno..think i'm going mad...nvm...but i tell u all sumthing...mian bao hao ren damn cute!haha...lalala...billy oso..haha...but mian bao zhao ren more practical a bit...so ya...haha...i'm positve i'm going mad...

wha...so long nvr cum le...loads of things happened...i still dunno whether i wanna carry on with this cold war...hai...i dunno la...aniwaes...friendships always have its ups n downs...sometimes...we juz have to embrace it..oh well...we'll c....aniwaes...mian bao zhao ren damn cute!!!haha....beng is over le...haha...now itz mian bao zhao ren...more practical a bit...can c everyday in sch..hah...well..seems like i damn desperate lidat...ha...i juz wan a pair of secure arms tt i can call mine onli..i'm onli a ger..i oso nid sum1 to b there 4 mi sum times...hmm...i single ma...hu ask mi single so i can let my fantasy run n aim anibody i like...haha...so nw..itz mian bao zhao ren!haha...damn cute leh he...billy oso damn cute...haha... =P